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My life is anything but dull. Going to and fro from hospital has been full of lessons.
I have used the verse No law but God's, lately with all the politics in a hospital settings.
It is what it is and loving it, is the only sensible way to not get my emotions in a knot. Because no matter how desperate things look on the surface, it is all love and in moments the situation changes magically.
There is a constant flow of new faces coming and going into my husband's room. A new personal support worker every other day and a new nurse too. A new doctor weekly..And each time a new face emerges, my husband's needs have to be spelled out. Most don't have the time to read charts. I am his advocate when needed. Good thing it is all an illusion.
My husband is blind in one eye and inevitably the call bell will br put on the wrong side where he can't see it. He is not able to walk anymore. He has problems swallowing so his meds have to be broken up, not crushed, he hates them crushed. He can't take lids off or open packages. He has a problem with the simplest task.
I use the Hawaiian prayer to stand in the gap, because of the part he is playing in this lifetime for my edification. The prayer: I am so sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you.
I have discovered the one with all the power is not the doctors and hospital politics but it is me, yes little ole me.
I saw that my husband was reacting to a drug badly with palsy like symptoms and I demanded he be taken off of it immediately and voila it was done.
There is no law but God's , I whisper to myself and things get done or undone as the case may be.
If I was full of ego it could get heady.... smile.....
I love this verse in a time of need where there are circumstances out of our control, especially in the conveyor belt world we live in.
Spirit tells me constantly that in spite of what appears, all is under the control of God's law of ove.
So be it and so it is.