This is nothing new  to most of you, I am sure, but it has resurfaced for me when I need it most.

I am discovering something important about my drama with  hospitals and all that entails as more than a learning space in my tiny little universe but a gigantic wake up to what I am here for..Learning to love  'what is' and how to do that  when everything seems to look so sad.

I  have been learning what I need to do to be awake to love's presence  ..Choose to stay present and in the moment to have joy about any of this life's illusions. The moments are going past so quickly that even talking with a friend, eating a meal, taking a walk or a having  shower, are all moments I am either in joy being present with the experience or I am projecting a story about what is happening all around me and what I need to do about it.

I stand in the shower and being totally present with the feeling of the water on my skin and the heat, the exhilaration of gratitude I feel, the gratitude for being able to have water to shower with. Clean, sweet wonderful water. How beautiful, how utterly wonderful.

 This is what it is to be present. I take this with me into the hospital setting, I am present as I stroke my husband's brow and hold his hand. I am oblivious to all else for these moments. What a diference being present makes for me and for him.

I am grateful Thank you for Your Presence of joy filled moments.