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This has been something that has kept me from moving forward until I figured it out and would like to share.
During a conversation with a Seventh Day Adventist, I informed her that when I talk to Jesus, he is spoken to as my Brother. I blast Him, I cuss Him out, I cuss at Him, I Love Him, I never ask for anything as if I am in lack (used to, seemed to... make the lack last longer in time), and the only thing I ask for anymore is guidance in many symbolic ways. She was aghast that I do not pray to Christ (Jesus) with reverence and respect! He must be 'respected'! I said, "He's my BROTHER, not a 'lord' of which I am to bow to. He knows our heart and mind better than we do, why not bring it out for us to see, too?"
I also see something like this with many others, including Course Students. Before I found ACIM, I would be in depression, anger and the like and begin crying as I drove home from work. I felt alone, hopeless, helpless, etc. I remember one day, in the midst of tears running down my face, snot leaking onto my upper lip, beginning to shout and cuss and take it out on God because HE wasn't fixing ANYTHING and had the power to do so. The crying stopped and I began to laugh. You know why? I heard/felt/saw Him standing there, laughing at me saying, "It's ABOUT TIME YOU CALLED ME!" He wants us to call, period, regularly. Doesn't matter the content or words, just call. :) The DAY I gave up the romanticized notion of Jesus is a day of... it was weird. It was like a switch turned off and everything changed. The relationship became more, like we were one, instead of Me talking TO Him. Now, we commune WITH each other.
Do not be afraid to show Him/Them your complete 'belief' in shame, hatred, acts of defiance, smallness, judgment, fear, perversions (yes, even these including liking children, beastiality, S&M, etc.). HE Already KNOWS. :) Now it's up to YOU to admit it and look at it, for it is only the ego who has put the belief in your mind that there is a right and wrong regarding anything.
Open to Them/Him.... They/He Loves You regardless of what the ego or humanity, society, your boss, your kids, your spouse, etc., say. Know this to be a truth.
Always in Love...