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What does Jesus want?

This has been something that has kept me from moving forward until I figured it out and would like to share.

During a conversation with a Seventh Day Adventist, I informed her that when I talk to Jesus, he is spoken to as my Brother. I blast Him, I cuss Him out, I cuss at Him, I Love Him, I never ask for anything as if I am in lack (used to, seemed to... make the lack last longer in time), and the only thing I ask for anymore is guidance in many symbolic ways. She was aghast that I do not pray to Christ (Jesus) with reverence and respect! He must be 'respected'! I said, "He's my BROTHER, not a 'lord' of which I am to bow to. He knows our heart and mind better than we do, why not bring it out for us to see, too?"

I also see something like this with many others, including Course Students. Before I found ACIM, I would be in depression, anger and the like and begin crying as I drove home from work. I felt alone, hopeless, helpless, etc. I remember one day, in the midst of tears running down my face, snot leaking onto my upper lip, beginning to shout and cuss and take it out on God because HE wasn't fixing ANYTHING and had the power to do so. The crying stopped and I began to laugh. You know why? I heard/felt/saw Him standing there, laughing at me saying, "It's ABOUT TIME YOU CALLED ME!" He wants us to call, period, regularly. Doesn't matter the content or words, just call. :) The DAY I gave up the romanticized notion of Jesus is a day of... it was weird. It was like a switch turned off and everything changed. The relationship became more, like we were one, instead of Me talking TO Him. Now, we commune WITH each other.

Do not be afraid to show Him/Them your complete 'belief' in shame, hatred, acts of defiance, smallness, judgment, fear, perversions (yes, even these including liking children, beastiality, S&M, etc.). HE Already KNOWS. :) Now it's up to YOU to admit it and look at it, for it is only the ego who has put the belief in your mind that there is a right and wrong regarding anything.

Open to Them/Him.... They/He Loves You regardless of what the ego or humanity, society, your boss, your kids, your spouse, etc., say. Know this to be a truth.

Always in Love...

Jeri

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Comment by Patricia Erickson on July 23, 2012 at 11:50am: Jeri....I cdn't be happier seeing your blog featured here....I'd also like to invite others to join us on Ego Schmeego on Forum....you and I have totally different kinds of energies...I admire your's....what I think we have in common is wanting to look right AT ego and with the help of the Holy Spirit handing it out of our spiritual space...just making more room for peace on every level of our experience. I like the way you tell the truth....there's nothing all "nice" nor "abstract" about your shares. Infinite Love...pme.

Comment by Jeri Attwood on July 22, 2012 at 6:29pm: OH! *LOL* Patricia, Rumors:

Aliens are coming in 2012 and giving 'special' people the choice of staying here and helping or moving, with them, to energy bodies.

The Earth is going to rotate on its axis this year (though it's been doing so over the past few years).

That Christ is going to come down and the final battle is going to occur...

The 'earth' is going to blow

A meteor is going to hit the earth

Sun flares are going to burn us up,

NWO wants to remove 4 billion people from the world and use the rest for slaves, chem trails, poisonous foods, allergies, illnesses and so on.

Nuclear War, Illuminati, mind control (which is what we are attempting to overcome/change), and on and on the fun games go! I see it as just that: Games.

etc., etc... YouTube is FULL of fear factor! And I have found conspiracy theories very interesting, so delved into it quite heavily for about 6 - 8 months. Just dabbled for a few years. :) Went from being totally in denial to checking out possibilities, and ACIM really opened me up to that "anything CAN happen" so I delved and got all fearful and angry and believed almost everything. Holy Spirit guided me to continue my delving until I began to laugh. And, I did. :) Delving into what brings on fear is part of the process, I think. It was for me. To face it and inundate it, handing it over as I am watching/reading, then coming to a process where it is a fun game that I am not involved in. :) Removing seriousness from the mind.

T.V. is used to continually reiterate fear (this I've seen from experience). Columbine was a set up practice, not real. Same with the Colorado shootings, etc., etc. 'shrug' Commercials tell you you are sick, movies push out fear of others who will kill you. News reports many things you should be frightened of, making more noise about things that the government wants more control over so you will give in to their laws and wants. It's so interesting to look at it from the outside! FEMA, body boxes, militia, police state, and the like. The game is being played well, and the media makes things up and puts it out as they are told to do. NOTHING is true, nothing is Real, except God. :) It's a beautiful thing, indeed! Anyway, I went on to ramble ville... ~giggle~

Comment by Patricia Erickson on July 22, 2012 at 10:17am: just going back to what you wrote yesterday about your own shift of some years ago and excitement over growth...you then said you'd heard many rumors and don't care if they are true...I doubt that I care either...but can't help being curious...what rumors?...pme

Comment by Patricia Erickson on July 21, 2012 at 10:16am: Jeri...why don't we go back to the Ego Schmeego page and start our own dialogue about ego...my journal is hand written and so not immediately shareable but I cd. copy some stuff out of it and of course as we know...NEW things are coming to the surface all the time...also I wd. be willing to discuss parts of the Course that I "missed" altho I had already read them several times....then suddenly the meaning became clear to me esp with the help of Sarah's comments...the ones that follow ACIM email page that I get every day.

anyway..I love and share your approach of bringing it all to the surface for healing.....I'm so grateful to you...pme.

Comment by Jeri Attwood on July 21, 2012 at 12:16am: Patricia, I would be interested in seeing your journal. :) I started one online , facebook, called ACIM Journal and used to post pretty regularly. Have slowed way down though. "shrug"

I noticed there is little information regarding the 'egoistic' struggles, hence why I began the page. I think it would be nice to share the information that fighting the ego, saying, "NO" to it, repressing, and so on, is not the correct way to open. That's where I had my difficulty. Not knowing if what I was experiencing was 'normal' (like... WHAT is normal?? HA!) or if I was resisting too much.

As for the past 6 months or so being of significance in your journey, I noticed a 'shift' in the energies, or what have you, a few years ago and have been excited ever since for the changes coming. Have heard many rumors and don't care if any are true.

Something that may help, too, if you've not already found him: on Youtube, punch in Eckhart Tolle Dr. Suess and listen to Scott (Grace) Kalechstein. Humor is awesome and he has some nice songs on his site. :) REALLY lightens up the journey, I think.

Patricia, and everyone else who has commented, Blessings in Eternal Love to you.

Comment by Patricia Erickson on July 20, 2012 at 11:25pm: Jeri....your sharing really showed up as the answer to a deep desire of mine....altho I have read ACIM on and off for 25 yrs....its only in the last 6 months or so that its really begun to come together for me. Actually taking an online course in Conversations with God reopened ACIM for me and i understood it like never before.

I started keeping a journal called "Journey On"...reflections on enlightenment by a perferctly ordinary person. In it I just let my ego go as wild as it wanted and got to take new looks at shame..guilt..blame..hatred..anger etc. You know..all that good stuff. I was just deperate for someone with whom to share and to hear their own struggles and triumphs as we "journey on" thru our stuff.

Just a few days ago I came on this site and there was your story....thank you..thank you..thank you for your very honest posting finding it felt like a miracle.

All the best and I'll be watching for more news from you...love from pme.

Comment by Fernando Tiberti on June 29, 2012 at 4:09pm: This message has touched me. :') Thank you.

Comment by Danielle Boonstra on June 28, 2012 at 2:22pm: Jeri, this is just perfect and SO helpful ♥ xo

Comment by Corinne Zupko on June 28, 2012 at 9:18am: I love this Jeri!! You are so right - we can't expect the Holy Spirit or Jesus to transform into miracles what we keep hidden. We've got to bring it ALL to them!!!

xoxo